Well, as promised, this week I’m back on track with my testimony. I last said that from birth until the time I graduated from high school, life was great! And as far as I was concerned, life would always be great!
After high school I started junior college and absolutely hated it; but I loved my boyfriend! So I quit school, got married, and had two children. Sadly, our marriage didn’t last very long. We were young and at this point we didn’t have a relationship with the Lord. If we had, perhaps things would have worked out differently.
Our two children and I moved from Jackson, MS to Hattiesburg, MS and I began the next chapter of my life … as a young, divorced, clueless mother of a three-year-old daughter and a fourteen-month-old son.
My children and I attended Church a couple of times, but that was about the extent of my relationship with the Lord. Over the years I knew that the children and I needed to be in Church but I convinced myself that God knew all the responsibilities I had – the children, their school work and other activities, the bills, my job, cleaning the house, cooking, the laundry, the ironing, the car, the yard, the dog, etc. – and I convinced myself that God knew it took me all weekend to get ready for the next week.
Also, during this time I was working at the University of Southern Mississippi. So I spent each work day with students and college professors and I started thinking, “Gee, I’m young and look at all of this great stuff that life has to offer that I’ve missed out on.”
So, regrettably, I spent a great deal of time and effort looking for and experiencing things the world said would bring me happiness. Oh, by the way, most of the things the world calls “the way to happiness,” God calls sin!
While I was seeking happiness through worldly things, which by the way does not exist, an unexpected thing happened – time passed quickly! I got older and my little children grew into big children.
I was heartsick when I realized how old my children were and I had done nothing to teach them about God. Because of the choices I made, my children didn’t even have an elementary understanding of Jesus and salvation – not that I was a Bible scholar myself. They were forced to begin the journey of their youth without God in the driver’s seat; they didn’t even know that God needed to be in the driver’s seat!
My daughter hit a couple of rough bumps along her journey but thank God she survived. However, my son CRASHED!
More to come next week!